judgement

The part of me that wants to protect me

the inner father and mother I made through the years

And they may be very different from what my parents themselves are

makes me feel very confused at times

The kind of feeling where

I get to find what am I really doing to myself

Of making myself feel guilty

Because of the way I am

to see myself change

and become something better

A constant battle that makes me destabilize

and Love becomes something so confusing that I cannot realize

I am in a battle between the right and wrong

And I choose to be the one who is a destroyer

But the destroyer of the wrong

And bring down a new way

Not entirely new, but a rework of what has already been done

Because who can make such great thinking other than time

It takes many souls to build a great structure

It takes many to become truthful enough

To be the wrong one to be the one who in not so nice

But does what is needed to be done

And meanwhile, they get a degree of

Burning in the flames of the mind

To shine purely, makes me afraid of the hearts

That needs to be on my way I hope they realize

I hope they are less sensitive than what I feel all the time

I hope I don't make them feel so much pain at all

But the reality is humans are humans

And I don't think some are very different from the rest

They have their way of thinking and it is not supposed to change

And I want to stop making myself feel guilty for anything else

I deserve a stable mind which is growing

I deserve a confident soul to live

I deserve a person with a real persona

I deserve someone who wants to delegate to me 

What they already know they want

But they are not able to provide it as much