point of view

 What bothers me sometimes is how it is possible for me to ignore the blessings I have been given in life. It is hard to keep track of my own perspective and stop for a moment and look back. The infantile view of the world, how everything is supposed to work for me because I am. I have kept it for a long time and I don't know what is the alternative. This is the life I have been given to live and if I don't make it work for myself then why would I expect it to work all the time for me. The amount of time and attention I have is decided by the amount of time and attention I give to myself. How much time and attention am I giving to myself? a lot. But there are things that are running out of time and life is too long for their effect to be ignored.

Charlie

I got a statue of Charles Chaplin at an auction this weekend. I watched some of his movies, The Great Dictator, City Light, Modern Times, and The Kid are the ones I remember watching. I am not a big fan of black-and-white movies but this person was a character of my childhood memories too and growing up I decided to learn more about his work. Of course, there are many layers to these works but there are parts that resonated with me the most and I want to talk about them.

I am sure people like Chaplin left a heritage to humankind that is immeasurable by any quantifiable unit of value. The gift of Truth, Clarity, Humility, and Laughter. 

To be able to be someone who has a word among the people who are involved in the center of people's attention one must be a person with a high sense of self-worth. The reason for it is the natural byproducts of artistic work come with human emotions. That is the reason why some artists are pictured as people with a feeling of disgust for the absence of perfection in their world. This goes for all the people who want to be on top of their work. But then, there are actors who get so famous around their roles that it becomes hard to draw the line in mind between their real self and their playing role. Caplin was one of those actors who despite the fame and fortune he was carrying was embracing his movie character who was the exact opposite of what prestige is. 

For someone who has not created anything, it is easy to see themselves as the best in the world. Even among the creators, only a small number of them get the chance to create relatable works that can affect the mass. Now here there lies a fine line between maximizing the number of the ones who were affected. There are subjects that have always been attractive to people's eyes. There are pieces of work that have been seen by millions. The true value of the work lies in how deeply the work has affected the hearts of the ones who got in touch with it. 

Perfection can be the deepest desire of the artist. Seeing their work become perfect can be also a trap. There are many negative consequences that come with perfectionism. One is the more perfect the work is the farther it stays from the reality. Perfection is the mental construct of a single mind and the work must appeal to many other different minds. The other problem with perfectionism is the time it consumes to provide the work to the audience. Every moment of time requires its own food for thought that is suitable for the culture of the time. 

Here with all these inner struggles, Chaplin decides to be someone who ridicules himself by acting imperfect. Of course, he has his moments of greatness in his movies too but the picture he is presenting for most of the time is a picture of one who is the underdog. This makes it more appealing for the general public to empathize with the character and be drawn into liking him. Which is a beautiful way of embedding his mindset in his work. One of the most beautiful speeches in human history is his final speech in the movie The Great Dictator

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w8HdOHrc3OQ

to show his point one can make a movie and send a message to millions

Mindscape

 writing is way of saying words with hands. For me my hands are so precious because they have the mind of their own. They know what to do and what to say with the rest of my body. Even if my mouth does not talk they are able to say what needs to say. It is hard and complicated for the mouth to bring up words. The complexity of vocal chords movements, air pushing through the lungs and diaphragm, and tongue and mouth movement all involved makes it such a difficult job to do

Consequences

 They seem to be such an inconvenient feature of human life. Wouldn't it be easier to live with no consequences? without worry, without the need for thinking ahead? 

Maybe, but maybe the world of ours is not made to be easy. It's made to make sense. And consequences are the bridge between not knowing and experimenting to wisdom. The steps themselves aren't going to be decided by us but the details of the execution plan are in our hand to explore and find our own method. 

The experimentation has to be done by observing how we feel at the moment. Trusting the feelings and moving forward is the tool. By getting into troubles and being forced to feel bad, sharpens our intuition and makes way for the future steps to be taken more precisely.

And love is not free

dissociation

 Do we like to associate with our body and earthly living or dissociate from it?

It is a question of whether or not we want to take responsibility for stepping outside of our minds?

For an infant outer world is a hard place to be. Cold and harsh, so shocking that it makes the infant cry.

Like the guilt of passage through the birth canal was not an enough remorseful decision and it must have been carried with this painful consequence.

But soon the skin thickens and the warm embrace of mother makes the effort worthwhile. Funny how the choice of separation was carried by the thirst for unification. 

Some say a price to pay for the first sin.

The constant pull from the outside makes the price look like a pleasure to pay.

But for what?

For a moment to be stretched in time

A feeling of immortality, living for eternity

I hate it when it comes to this but a reason for choosing to be

There must be a reason. "A need for a reason" is the inevitable imperfection of the design

The tiniest disturbance in the unified field of being for the consciousness 

To make the waves emerge