To be

Hi,

What does it mean to Be?

In the form that I am living, to be is to be in the form of the Human and to go through life with its limitations and options.

This type of being consists of waking up, deciding to be awake, experiencing feelings from internal organs like the stomach and bladder, having something to do, and doing it, becoming tired, and going back to sleep.

A major part of to be as a human is to express what's in your mind. Thoughts are formed in the mind and they can be thoughts about memories of the past, something that is happening now, and things to be done in the future.

You can see how the experience of time is almost critical to the human experience. Things happen along the axis of time and things loop and repeat over time.

The other major experience which comes with time is the experience of the moment. In the moment, gears of being, make contact with the surrounding world. This movement gives directions to the human body and mind to be in a certain way. To play a role in a certain act.

The act of writing is struggling to find words to express what the eye of the mind is looking at. It's a complete work in the future and every moment is about making a piece of the puzzle. One of the fundamental qualities of the act is to show patterns. Patterns like evolution, repeat, growth, and self-replication. That's why complete perfection is unachievable in reality. There can be moments of build-up towards a  moment of perfection but total perfection means there is not going to be any growth and evolution anymore. It will be equal to the death of the actor.

The act of reading is to get engaged with an unknown mind through the flow of many words into the mind. The words carry meaning and meanings build emotions like moments of understanding and clarity. To read is to go on an adventure to the journey of exploration of another. To see the difference and to feel the alienation.

There are many acts out there but there is a common thing among them all. There is only one way of doing an act perfectly and it's built into the nature of the Human Form. To be is to polish the self by many experiments and trials on a certain act and to become closer to the perfection of the act. Life in this definition turns into waking up and trying and trying to evolve the self and at each phase of evolution, experience growth, move forward, and play a part in the act of imperfection in front of other eyes to be judged and to replicate what is understood. 

In a profession, that can be called to be a professional. Someone who can do the act in front of many observers and get it right under most conditions. Each pair of eyes adds an observer effect to the act and for the actor to do it the right way, they must go through time and practice to consolidate their act.

A master can provide the right set of eyes for the student to grow. A master is also incomplete but compared to the student, is more perfect. The passage of time doing the act has put sediments upon their mind and made more layers to their thinking. That's why they can understand the student and give them directions with their judging eyes.

To be judged is never pleasant but it is a part of the movement towards perfection. A right set of eyes can calibrate the direction of growth to a better compass.

I think to be is to decide to and to do